My Valentine...

My Valentine...there is not enough time in all of my life to express what you  mean to me...

 

     Steve , you are the love of my life, my rock, my everything.  It's going on 15 years since we met, We have been married for 11 years on August 24th.We have compacted more experiences both good and bad than most people deal with in a lifetime. You have walked in front of me to protect me, beside me as my friend, gave me the encouragement and a little push when you knew I could do something on my own, and then mentally and even literally have physically carried me on many more than one occasion, when I could go no more.

    You have never made me feel less than...no matter what my physical struggles have been. And have cheered me on and loved me through it all.  When I got this diagnosis and honestly didn't think I could endure what it will take to beat this...you never missed a beat , like you were shocked I would think that, you made me see how much I have endured and gone through before, how strong I have been when I only saw myself as weak...and pointed out things that I have endured that most people never even imagine. You made me see that I can fight this, I have done, scary and painful, and ugly for alot of my life and this is just another hurdle.  And then I realized there isn't too much left to scare me I have seen and done so much...those words empowered me.

     This life we have made together, first me and you, then these beautiful children...we have nurtured and loved and grown and learned so much through each other... I have softened your hard edges and you have toughened me up where I needed to be stronger. You have made me see the world in new ways...You tell me and show me how much you love me, and tell me how special you think I am... I am blessed...

     Without you I think I would have given up long ago. Without you, and the beautiful perfectly, imperfect life we have I would have nothing.

    You are the absolute PERFECT father...you are a great provider are so physically strong and work so hard to give us all we need and more and this beautiful home that you rebuilt with love for us...yet it is the same man that can give little girls side ponytails , Who doesn't think twice about getting on a carousel just to see us smile.

     Your sense of humor and ability to make me laugh at some of the otherwise worst moments of my life is unbelievable. You are my best friend, my lover and my heart and soul.

    For you I WILL DO THIS, WITH YOU I CAN DO THIS, because I know you will always be in front of me, beside me, behind me giving me a little push, and there to carry me when I am too weak to go on

     I might have got a bad draw with my health , but I thank God everyday for gifting me with you my perfect man, who is strong when he needs to be, soft when he needs to be,funny and sexy and sweet, brilliant, valiant, compassionate, honorable,respectable, giving,generous,who takes care of everyone, and loves me all of the time no matter what...

     I will love you beyond eternity, and I will fight with all I have to stay with you... you told me I will be okay and you have always made sure I have been... now its my turn to be STRONG and fight like I have never fought before to stay here for you and our beautiful kids...just one day at a time.

                                               I love you,

                                                Happy Valentine's Day, Baby...

                                                Forever, ~J~